Shame

歌詞

Femininity, a sacred life My goals and dreams achieved, or soon they might Unintruded being, innocent Young, with a hopeful future to be spent I can't believe my idiocy You came along with your invasion Your act of violence not of lust Upon me... Racing through these darkened streets at night Fleeing from this terror that haunts me I am chosen, this can't be right The pain that your thrust brings I don't want your flesh I'm not your whore But you want my blood I'm not a whore Trapped down here inside A nightmare that's become reality A heinous violation Of my humanity Right before my eyes I see my world Fractured so precise by one so cold Through your veins run ice, I beg of thee As I lie paralyzed please let me be From within your soul I stare I don't think I'll live to see this end You'll reign eternally through my nightmares If I ever sleep again The hatred directed at me 'cause of what I am Is as chilling as the defilement itself I wonder, what kind of beast is man? What emotions are and not felt? I don't want your flesh I'm not your whore But you want my blood I'm not a whore I can't even comprehend Why this act has come to be Proven time and time again The ultimate sadistic release This violent form of incarceration Trapped by savagery, helpless I lie I refuse this indoctrination Though you shatter this inner sanctum of mine An ancient inherited shame Bonding women and horror Outlasting the boundaries of time Enslaved forevermore Inherent crimes Through generations has become A terror cycle... You can't see me but you feel me You only want what you don't understand You can't have me so you take me Forever scarred where you've stamped your brand You look in my eyes and you tell me What do you see? Of this I'm deserving? You can't see me but you feel me You only want what you don't understand You can't have me so you take me Forever scarred where you've stamped your brand You need to crush me with your lividity Does this make you feel more like a man You can't have me, so you rape me My innocence strangled by your hand This must be necrophilia, for I am dead inside Your violent misogyny, your strength drowns my cries In shock, I'm crippled with disbelief This can't be happening to me Oh god, this hurts, I'm bleeding from friction Unconscious, I'm pleading to be... You cannot imagine the anger I feel Nor can you imagine the pain and despair This double jeopardy soon happens again When they scrape me for semen and hair My mind is frozen with your face intact This atrocity from which I haven't been spared From now on, I'll only know lovemaking through An act of intense terror The malevolence which pours over me You fill me with your rage It's mortifying, diabolical, Controlling through this stage I struggle to cope with what's happening I'm praying for my death I've done nothing wrong, I've been victimized So I'll pray for yours instead The physical torment inflicted on me Is insufferable but it doesn't compare To your terrible criminal mentality And the scars I'll forever bear To live through this brutal show of force Will cause me years of torment and grief Awaiting this misery to run its course As I scream out innocent pleas This violent form of incarceration Trapped by savagery, helpless I lie I refuse this indoctrination Though you shatter this inner sanctum of mine An ancient inherited shame Bonding women and horror Outlasting the boundaries of time Enslaved forevermore I will force myself to carry on And vengeance will be ultimately mine If you are not imprisoned soon By my hands you will die... I don't what your flesh I'm not your whore But you want my blood I'm not a whore Through rape you've created me A victim not above revenge A churning, seething mass of hate But you haven't conquered my soul