i hate that i love you

歌詞

I remember what you said That shit tore me to pieces That I was something that you wanted But not really needed I used pray for someone like you Could of sworn I was dreaming Then I woke up and I realized You were one of those demons Now I'm contemplating life And wondering what's ahead If it's without you I might choose to not live it instead You gave me life and without you I fucking feel like I'm dead And as I'm writing this song I'm currently trapped in my head And now it's dead weight Ya it hurts I don't understand why we just couldn't work Why?! Wish that we could speak But I can't find words You know that I'm hurt And you don't care And that just makes it worse So when I see you smile I fill my cup and write another verse Battling myself and evil thoughts Tried to spend my life with you I didn't know what it would cost Should of never came to Cali Never opened up my heart Wish I never found love 'Cause I never would of lost This this every day Ask myself why didn't she stay Looking up to heaven Asking God to take away this pain I know that I love you and I know that you don't feel the same And that's what's killing me inside And causing me to go insane Fuck Said we're too different Told me we would never work Always put me second I would sprint but couldn't finish first Got to comfortable and let my guard down When you realized I did You took my feelings And you threw 'em in the fucking dirt Matching tattoos I can't believe that you convinced me Now you're gone And it's the only thing That keeps you here with me Ya hate but I love you You left but still see me If you needed it right now I'd still give you my kidney I'm lost Can't wanna see another woman I'm blind And if I do Gods gonna have to Pry open my eyes You gon' laugh and say I'm weak Until you realize and find That sharing love is the meaning And whole purpose of life And when you do and hear this song You will cry and sing along And realize that you don't wanna die old and alone And I'll be here still writing on my phone Isolated in home Drunk half-way gone screaming I still love you! And wouldn't put no one above you Even though you fucking lied Something in me still trusts you I would die for you, kill for you End my whole career They could cut off both my arms And I'd still find a way to hug you I don't mean to make this music But it's something that I must do Fuck you! I motherfucking hate that I love you I only run to you 'cause I can't run from you You took my child away He was my fucking son too I hate that I love you I hate that I love you