Ripping from me is this haunting admission, so daunting A complete jealousy of the recently dead The deepest of all admirations, so foul Of who'd choose to aim bullets for the hinds of their heads Have you ever tasted it? Metallic barrel placed in it? Do you possess the gall to pain all those in life you've touched? Failure, I renounce our tenure This venture has drained me I ask thee grant self murder's bliss My conscience has begged me to end this horrendousness Wrap rope so tightly 'round my neck and twist Suicide be my guide The only thing I will get right in this life My appeal shall not be denied My place - now secured My home - the other side I never belonged here I never did ask if I could join this world collapsed A hell hath awakened and now I choose sleep So let this razor get the better of me Suicide be my light The only wrong I stand to right in this life To the ear of the Reaper confide His blade offers mercy May it tear me wide I never belonged here I never did ask if I could join this world collapsed My hell hath awakened and now I choose sleep So let this gesture do the talking for me Dear Mother and Father, now look what you've made More eager fodder for the depth of a grave For the sweet gift of life you've both bestowed upon me You'll wish that you'd felt inclined to keep the fucking receipt