Deathbed

歌詞

I can smell the death on the sheets Covering me I can't believe this is the end But this is my deathbed I lie here alone If I close my eyes tonight I know I'll be home The year is 1941 I was eight years old and far far too young To know that the stories of battles and glory Was a tale a kind mother made up for a son You see Dad was a traveling preacher Teaching the words of the Teacher Mother had sworn he went off to the war And died there with honor somewhere on a beach there But he left once to never return Which taught me that I should unlearn Whatever I thought a father should be I abandoned that thought like he abandoned me By '47 I was fourteen I'd acquired a taste for liquor and nicotine I smoked until I threw up yet I still lit them up For thirty more years like a machine So right there you have it That one filthy habit Is what got me where I am today I can smell the death on the sheets Covering me I can't believe this is the end I can hear the sad memories Still haunting me So many things I'd do again But this is my deathbed I lie here alone If I close my eyes tonight I know I'll be home Got married on my twenty-first Eight months before my wife would give birth It's easier to be sure you love someone When a father inquires with the barrel of a gun The union was far from harmonious No two people could've been more alone than us The years would go by and she'd love someone else And I'd realized I hadn't been loved yet myself From there it's your typical spiel Yeah if life was a highway I was drunk at the wheel I was helping the loose ends all fall apart Yeah I swear I was destined to fail and fail from the start I bowled about six times a week A bottle of Beam kept the memories from me Our marriage had taken