(So, so cold) (So tired) I hate myself More than I ever let on I'm burnt out at 22 I lived too fast And I loved too much And I'll die too young But I chose this cup that I drank from Knew what I was getting into But I couldn't let out What I had to keep in I'm ashamed of myself And unspeakable sins That I've committed and I've made mistakes But I'll find my way There's no explanation for The things I've failed at before They can't hold my hand It just hurts to be a man Through the tortures of the damned Of the damned If I only had an axe I'd sever the ties I've made with the world Maybe I can be a stranger In a strange place If I start now Maybe I can be saved If I only had a mask I'd cover these bleeding eyes They're bloodshot now But they'll be black by dawn If I wake up now I can be pure again I've made mistakes But I'll find my way There's no explanation for The things I've failed at before They can't hold my hand It just hurts to be a man Through the tortures of the damned Look at me now I'm on the tracks with my back Towards the last train leaving town Look at me now I'm on the tracks with my back Towards the last train leaving town Look at me now I'm on the tracks with my back Towards the last train leaving town Look at me now I'm on the tracks with my back Towards the last train leaving town And I've made mistakes But I'll find my way There's no explanation for The things I've failed at before They can't hold my hand It just hurts to be a man (Through the tortures of the damned) I've made mistakes But I'll find my way There's no explanation for The things I've failed at before They can't hold my hand It just hurts to be a man Through the tortures of the damned Of the damned