So many times Fucked up Been stuck Too many lies To keep locked up I've made these mistakes For that I'll pay You wait and see Self destruction Seems to be The only way The truth are lies in me Anger leads misery I'll try so hard to Change from day to day Falling back is all I know This book Is broken upon The time of death Is chosen Falling down No turning back now I've tried so hard Through the years I tried so hard But only failed Feels like I'm always Stuck in here My mind this hell I feel it's time To make a change This time we'll see I'll say to you Don't hold your breath Don't hold your breath You will regret I've made an attempt For that I should Make a change Self destruction lies I know what you want I cannot be what you want