“You cannot defeat the darkness, you can only be the light” Fuck that At the core of night I couldn’t imagine anything I’d like less than to be the light And in this I mean literal darkness Literal light and literal night Why would I want to? I liked you like I like the dark In it, I feel my body in a different way Because like when my body was with yours In the dark my body doesn’t end at my finger tips Instead bleeding out into a space I can’t calculate the mass of But that I know is massive I am a giant in these spaces I am more than a giant I am limitless We are limitless Darkness is an infinite container I am a gas seeking to fill its volume Or dissipate to harmlessness within it Let myself be absorbed into something I am also an agent of until it and I are both malleable Next darkness is the backseat of my dead best friend’s sister’s car And every potentially stubbed toe or missed step on the staircase Are the bobbing headlights that haunt your parent’s neighborhood Coming into focus through the fog Slowly bouncing towards us like specters while we lay silently in cover Save for the percussion of our hearts and the exuberance of our lungs And every soft carpet fiber Every safely navigated hallway taking me deeper into dark Is your charged touch sending jolts of current waltzing through my muscles Is your breathy way of saying my name After the hallway I stumble to my bed Isn’t this exciting? feeling out into a comfortable unknown I can float out into the dark until I’ve reached land again If there’s land to be had If there isn’t that’s fine I feel safer now floating out into the precipice I liked you like I like the dark Why would I aim to defeat it?