They say "how are you today?" I say I don't know for sure Don't feel the same as before There's all of this pain i ignore "Have you been lost in your way?" Yeah, like I'm trapped in a maze Seems like the whole world is lost So then i guess i'm okay Something ain't right, All of these decisions ain't mine Thinking I was steering, I'm just here for the ride Gotta take five, and reevaluate All I know for now is that I really need to graduate I started late, but somehow I'm still tortoise with the pace Staying up recording til it's late Mama's sleeping in the other room so I gotta keep a whisper, At least till I afford to get a place When I look outside, gray is all I see Looming over me But when I close my eyes, It's where I wanna be, slowly as I breathe It's all getting to be too much A never ending need to rush I'm feeling cooped up and I know you can hear it Sounding like the same old song, different lyrics Somehow, I always blame myself For things that just can't be helped Thinking whatever life throws, I could turn into power But maybe sometimes the lemons are just sour It's 9:43 The night's still young but I'm ready to sleep I find myself irritated by the smallest of things Like "why does bad shit always gotta happen to me?" It's all trivial compared to everything on TV, yeah I know that And no, I've never taken Prozac Maybe it's a sign of these crazy ass times Either way I need my daily calm, When I look outside, gray is all I see Looming over me But when I close my eyes, It's where I wanna be, slowly as I breathe