ADULT GIRL

歌詞

I can let go of the flower Now my power has returned I can look back at the past Now I see what I have learned Try my best to act my age But the child won't behave She wants to scream and cry and rage And who am I to dig her grave? The teenage years I never lived The innocence of high school kids Young romance and endless nights Of carefree joy and pure delight Didn't grow up in a normal world And now I'm just an adult girl Now I'm too old to die young But at least I had some fun Spent my 20s on the run Dreaming of suicide and love Think I'm stuck somewhere between Childhood and va-va-voom Always cycling in between Existential dread and doom Messy, numb, razors and knives Missed arteries and blacked-out nights Kittens, mittens, plushie toys Bows and hearts and sullen boys Robbed me of a teenage world Now I'm just an adult girl An adult girl Someone, tell me how to heal The terror living inside me I don't even know what's real I just know I wanna be free All the things I lost and loved Swept them underneath the rug Like a child, I wait and hope You might repair the things you broke Now I understand the world Of adult boys 'cause I'm an adult girl I'm an oyster without a pearl But that's just how it is for an adult girl An adult girl Adult girl