Needles and string Piece together our skins A stitch over here and a stitch over there Wrapped up our rotten flesh Then I felt the breeze brushing behind my neck I felt the weather And I felt on my shoulder The tiny drops of rain By the time I reached for your hand, you were already gone I let out a strange sound Weay waaouh ah waaouh When it dawned on me that I’ll never be unalone again Looking for meaning in this series of fruitless events So why am I here? Oh why am I here? Hey why am I here? Just silence I wish you were here, I wish you were here You would have been so proud of my achievements Letters and words Paragraphs of inner worlds A line over here and a line over there Crossed out the past, memories in black Then I felt your shame cutting into my chest I felt your perversity, felt your barbarity Felt the same demons in me Time and time again I thought If you never commented on how my body was so wrong I would have loved it all along My monstrosities are part of your natural science If there’s no meaning in these extraordinary events Then why am I here? Oh why am I here? Hey why am I here? I’m content So thank you for all the heartaches I experienced I’m here to accept, I’m here to accept I’m here to accept our judgements Our human faults, our human thoughts Our human flaws Because you were never my god