I should have known it'd be the fucking same, and all I've got is myself To blame. I should have learned by now and it's scary to think that I Can make myself believe anything. In the back my mind I think I always Knew that I was setting myself up for the worst. Of course I realized I Was right all along. It's happened before, this time is not the first. Derailed. Time after time I shoot myself in the foot. No matter how I Pull it keeps slipping away. Fuck I suck at this! But I still persist. Like any dog I'm going to have my day