I see myself sinking into an abyss Of self-loathing,lost in delusion Still cannot reach out and save myself I wanted to be noble and strong But pretense alone could not protect me Everything I had built was crumbling You said. "Not everything is as it seems. Sometimes it pays off." I knew I was being paranoid, but I couldn't agree to that I could not believe a word that came out of your mouth. It's sad, isn't it? I can't stop imagining that everything is made up of deception and falsehood You said. "Not everything is as it seems. Sometimes it pays off." Can't be the ideal you have in mind Sorry. I'm not strong enough to pursue the ideal Don't deny me anymore Don't deny it The noise of my heart continues to echo in my head Even now I see myself sinking into an abyss of self-loathing, lost in delusion. Still cannot reach out and save myself. Have not yet opened the gates of courage Have not yet opened the gates of courage