Miss You

歌詞

Your coffee cup is still beside the sink I leave it there longer than I should The hallway keeps the shape of where you stood And every quiet gives me time to think I found your hair tie underneath the bed A little black loop holding back the truth I keep inventing reasons to text you Then put the phone face down instead I tell my friends I’m getting by But your name changes the subject in my mind I’m learning how to miss you without calling How to sleep on my side of the bed I can carry every word you left me But I can’t make them mean something else You’re gone, and I’m still turning toward you Like my body hasn’t heard the news I’m learning how to lose you slowly While every part of me still chooses you The landlord fixed the lock we never used Your picture’s in a box beneath the stairs I thought that moving things would move the hurt But grief knows every room I walk into I heard our favorite song inside a store And counted all the seconds till it passed A stranger laughed the way you used to laugh I had to step outside the door I tell myself that time is on my side Then wake up reaching for you in the night I’m learning how to miss you without calling How to sleep on my side of the bed I can carry every word you left me But I can’t make them mean something else You’re gone, and I’m still turning toward you Like my body hasn’t heard the news I’m learning how to lose you slowly While every part of me still chooses you If loving you was something I could finish I’d put it in a drawer and close the door But some goodbyes keep breathing after leaving And I don’t know what I’m healing for I’m learning how to miss you without calling How to say your name and let it pass I can love the life we had between us Without pretending it can come back You’re gone, and I’m still turning toward you But the room gets easier to move through I’m learning how to lose you slowly And one day I’ll learn to choose me too The coffee cup is finally in the sink I leave the room before I start to think