That One Time

歌詞

(I gotta call my daddy back) (I'll hit him in a minute) (I'll do this first) I think the most beautiful shit is when you can be the most honest wit' yourself Like, that's when you-I think that's when you the most free, when you can be vulnerable (Yeah) And allow yourself to not be perfect, ya dig? Just be human-that's it (Yeah) That's the work I been doin', anyway (Gotta dig deep on that shit) It's takin' some time, but we gettin' there (Shit ain't easy though, for real) It only took one time I came out different (Yeah) I'm just like Gloria (Damn) Hmm, except my smile missin' I was experimentin' (What are they doin' over there?) I been known niggas lie I found out, so do women You were my one time I came out different My smile gone I'm turned out-now, I can't listen to those songs Memories come wit' 'em, hard to revisit Hard to count on love; my heart broke to a bunch of digits In the mirror, askin' my inner child what I'm missin' "What's wrong wit' me?" (Wrong wit' me?) Shit, that's what wrong wit' me Felt exed out by my exes (Damn) and momma's wisdom Sayin', "Never marry" while I'm layin' next to a married nigga Knowin' if my brother-in-law cheated on my sister I'd be pissed wit' her (I'd be pissed wit' her) I'm such a hypocrite I never baptized; I would've been disfellowshipped If Jehovah Witnesses witnessed the things I did I'm such a hypocrite-insecurity I never felt socially accepted or wanted physically Got me changin,' experimentin'- I fell in love wit' her Now, I'm smilin' different-am I hurt, turned out? Or maybe I'm still triggered Never felt wanted or pretty by no niggas-yeah, shit It only took one time, and one mo' Two, three times, and 'fore long We in relationship, my thoughts debatin' wit' Who I am, who I'm livin' for My parents, pastors, my demon, my fears, my nieces, my nephew, my fans? Clingin' to society who always label me but can't define me quite entirely Entirely, I'm overcome wit' it all Opened my vault, found my value in my truth and my flaws It only took one time for me to question it all, for real You gotta look in that mirror And ask those questions to you and only you 'cause you the only one that can answer them You know? They called it, I think, uh In the medical field, I think the professional term is to unblock that child Or even unblock that trauma, or I don't know, you just gotta audit wit' yourself You gotta just be okay with just bein', bein' imperfect Life is a process, we just goin' through it Matter fact, though, where my phone at, man? Alright, I'm done