Took a train yesterday far away from everything I love I could say I'm okay, but the truth is I'm already too fucked up Bet the little I have I won't make it through the next couple months Scared to death you'd trade the man I am for the man I was Do I stand or do I run away? Do I quit or do I pray? If I can't find you, then none of this matters I called my mom a second time today She said you'd only give what I can take And I've been lost before But losing you is a different kind of pain A different kind of pain A different kind of pain Without you, only road I'm on leads to early death So I went strolling through the city I hate Just tryna clear my head I found you at the bottom of a bottle, searching for a friend Hope this time I can keep you for a while before I lose you again Do I stand or do I run away? Do I quit or do I pray? If I can't find you, then none of this matters I called my mom a second time today She said you'd only give what I can take And I've been lost before But losing you is a different kind of pain A different kind of pain A different kind of pain