Every once in the months My sun sets fire to my feeling I'm on the path near the lake And it's stopping my breathing but it's still not a surprise It's in my chest It's in my ribs It's not my heart It's my grieving But it's not sad It's more of a longing That comes for the season That I'm in And I always wonder just where it's been And when I die I hope my soul doesn't go on and fly I hope it just stays right here Looking up into the sky Cause I know where I'm gonna die For a beautiful lover in the morning And once in the evening I see the kids in the water Full of being And then I will smile And the winter months only last for a while Looking up at the grey But I wouldn't ever have to worry 'bout freezing Just sit and ponder Never have to think about reason I'd be just somebody's memory But how different is it When you're just walking down the street You're always in a place that you're not You're inside of your loved ones I'm just someone's friend I still wake up every day And don't see an end The stillness kills me With a filledness that brings us to staring Out far beyond the shore The fire's brewing and glaring On the mirror on the lake And in the hold there's black, there's red, Orange and with the blue Never mind the breeze, never mind the miracles, I got me and I got you I know that this is my fate And if I was God This isn't even something that I could create And if I was God This isn't even something that I could create And if I was God This isn't even something that I could create And when I die I hope my soul doesn't go on and fly I hope it just stays right here Looking up into the sky Cause I know where I'm gonna die When the Lord comes down To take me back to the sky When the Lord comes down To bring us back to the sky When the Lord comes down I'll look Him straight in the eye I'll look Him straight in the eye