I've seen it all before - time and time again As close as I would ever dare to be And yet without a doubt - I will disagree The sudden truth is no surprise to me I know there is no easy way I've said it from the start Sometimes you've got to live the life And feel the pain I hear a beat inside my head I feel it in my heart But just the thought of it is driving me insane It's tearing me apart I hear a distant voice - very far away I'm silent now - I don't know what to say I've felt a strong desire To set myself on fire I don't think that would work for me today