Why don't you try pulling apart my world? Break it away so neat Do what the disease could never accomplish Amputate my brain nice and neat I'm just another fool lost in myself Afraid of what's in heaven I know what's in hell I've lived there for years I've got to live with myself I can't afford my dreams I've got to live with myself I've got to ignore these dreams And I'll try real hard not to kill myself I'll try real hard not to kill myself It's growing in my head like a little reminder Of something really obscene Something like what is in my nasty dreams To reach my goal I reach my deception It's a labor of love But the job isn't finished' I've got to shed some blood I've got to live with myself I can't afford my dreams I've got to live with myself I've got to ignore these dreams And I'll try real hard not to kill myself I'll try real hard not to kill myself