努力不足じゃない

歌詞

何度も繰り返してきたのに (Even though I've done it over and over again) 覚えられないことばかり (It's just full of things I can't remember) 頭が真っ白になって (My mind goes blank) 手が止まってしまう (And my hands just stop) 怠けてるって言われても (Even when they say I'm being lazy) 必死にやっているのに (I'm trying as hard as I can) 比べられるたびに (Every time I'm compared) 消えてしまいたくなる (I just want to disappear) 努力不足じゃない (It's not a lack of effort) これ以上できないほどに (So much that I can't do any more) 努力不足じゃない (It's not a lack of effort) わかってもらえないまま (But I'm still not understood) 笑顔で隠していたけれど (I tried to hide it with a smile) 心はずっと壊れそうで (But my heart has always felt like it's about to break) 「普通ならできるでしょ」と ("A normal person could do this, right?") 突き放されるだけ (I'm just pushed away) どれだけ頑張っても (No matter how hard I try) 同じ場所に立てなくて (I can't stand in the same place as others) 追いつけない悔しさが (The frustration of not being able to catch up) 胸を締めつけていく (Tightens its grip on my chest) 努力不足じゃない (It's not a lack of effort) 何度も自分を責めてきた (I've blamed myself over and over) 努力不足じゃない (It's not a lack of effort) それでも届かない声 (But still, my voice doesn't reach) 眠れない夜を越えて (Getting through sleepless nights) 涙に濡れた朝が来る (The tear-stained morning arrives) 「頑張ってるね」その言葉さえ (Even the words, "You're trying so hard") 誰からも聞こえなかった (I couldn't hear them from anyone) 努力不足じゃない (It's not a lack of effort) なのに置き去りにされて (And yet, I'm left behind) 努力不足じゃない (It's not a lack of effort) 孤独の中で 泣き叫ぶ (Screaming and crying in the solitude)