Now I'm without you and I just can't hide it And you'll never know anything that I feel inside You know I still love you, but I stay divided 'Cause I always hated your suicide I guess you'll never bother Looking back Call me up to say your last goodbye Did you think that I could just let you go? I wish I could've said the words still To save you Now I'm without you and I just can't hide it And you'll never know anything that I feel inside You know I still love you, but I stay divided 'Cause I always hated your suicide How could you leave us behind? I was only a boy And you made mother cry So I bury my grief far below, deep inside What else could I do? You're gone and it's true We saved your life, cuts like a knife It's always hard to leave the past behind I hope someday I'll get the chance to, to tell you Now I'm without you and I just can't hide it And you'll never know anything that I feel inside You know I still love you, but I stay divided 'Cause I always hated your suicide I always hated your suicide