Just when I thought I had handles on this I could soften my guard behind false confidence Just when I felt humbled by insipid Except from this blind-side and from reading a script Cause I am seduced by reaction and under the influence I'm slipping again I'm up to old tricks off my wagon I have no defense I'm wreaking havoc Wreaking havoc and consequence I get reduced by my own willfulness as I reach for my usual God-replacements Cause I have reached for sanction it lacks in my steps I'm slipping again I'm up to old tricks off my wagon I have no defense I'm wreaking havoc Wreaking havoc and consequence If forgiveness is understanding than I'm Affirming a compact for the millionth time On this tumbling house of cards of mine I am beaten by my impulsiveness By this uncanny foreshadowing of regret Cause I'm repulsed by restriction at least that's my excuse I'm slipping again I'm up to old tricks off my wagon I have no defense I'm wreaking havoc Wreaking havoc and consequence