and it's been awhile since I could hold my head up high and it's been awhile since I first saw you and it's been awhile since I could stand on my own two feet again and it's been awhile since I could call you and everything I can't remember as fucked up as it all may seem the consequences that I've rendered I've stretched myself beyond my means it's been awhile since I can say that I wasn't addicted and it's been awhile since I can say I love myself as well and and it's been awhile since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do and it's been awhile but all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you and everything I can't remember as fucked up as it all may seem the consequences that I've rendered I've gone and fucked things up again why must I feel this way just make this go away just one more peaceful day and it's been awhile since I could look at myself straight and it's been awhile since I said I'm sorry and it's been awhile since I've seen the way the candles light your face and it's been awhile but I can still remember just the way you taste and everything I can't remember as fucked up as it all may seem to be I know it's me I cannot blame this on my father he did the best he could for me and it's been awhile since I could hold my head up high and it's ben awhile since I said I'm sorry