Since I left I needed medicine Just can't shake it off Waking up I'm on the fence again Don't know what I lost So I'm not in any photographs Took that like a punch Talking to myself right off the ledge Guess that's what I want Could say I messed up Could say I dodged a bullet A different lifestyle, I don't know what to call it I don't know what to call it I hate it when I'm here I love it when I'm leaving I miss you when you're gone I'm floating in between Will I ever put my feet on the ground? Just be happy with the way it is now? I hate it when I'm here I love it when I'm leaving The more I feel alone The more I miss the deep end Will I ever drop my bags on the ground? Just be happy with the way it is now? (Now) Fighting through my tongue like fingernails I know I should stop Sorry that I had to bail again That's not what I want On a plane these thoughts are turning Always on then off Somewhere in between I'm torn again No one knows I'm gone Could say I messed up Could say I dodged a bullet A different lifestyle, I don't know what to call it I don't know what to call it I hate it when I'm here I love it when I'm leaving I miss you when you're gone I'm floating in between Will I ever put my feet on the ground? Just be happy with the way it is now? I hate it when I'm here I love it when I'm leaving The more I feel alone The more I miss the deep end Will I ever drop my bags on the ground? Just be happy with the way it is now? (Now)