Hey you know that I've been searching deep inside And I'm not certain I will like the things I find I don't know that you will understand but I have tried I don't know just why I need to do the things I do And I'd love to do these things without them hurting you I don't know that you will understand but that's the truth I'd give it up for you but let me finish what I got I'd love to now but lord you know it sure does take a lot I'll always love you honey but I can't be What I'm not