Yeah 'Cause even a spotlight or a movie Couldn't show the side that I've been hiding lately And lately They say the old me's not the new me But the same me still inside that I'm containing Unchain me And I don't cry like I used to 'Cause I know these tears don't wash my sins away And I don't pray like I used to 'Cause I don't think I deserve the time of day Listen, I'm sorry Since you saw me I've sought through bones, took my heart out my body Heaven forgot me 'Cause I'm longing for the times when time was nonexistent Kaleidoscope eyes I envision Combine our lives with a two-word sentence You said "I do" but I did not listen And I don't cry like I used to 'Cause I know these tears don't wash my sins away They don't wash them away now And I don't pray like I used to I don't pray 'cause I 'Cause I don't think I deserve the time of day The cross I bear I wear for my protection (I wear for my protection) I'm bending and I'm searching for connections (Searching for connections) I barely recognize my own reflection (It's my own reflection) 'Cause all I ever wanted was acceptance I fear rejection And I don't cry like I used to I don't cry 'Cause I know these tears don't wash my sins away Wash my sins away And I don't pray like I used to I don't pray no more 'Cause I don't think I deserve the time of day