I'm Serious, I'm Sorry

歌詞

I didn't know that he got in a car crash We could have been friends, could have got married Could have had grandkids, sent them to college Or at least attended each other's weddings. I didn't know that you stayed home for hours Calling his parents asking for answers Skipping your prom night, crying and praying Up to a God that you never believed in. Meghan held your body While you were sobbing at the party And I couldn't leave the kitchen I ingested too much poison. I wanted to tell you I know how it feels when The people you love just start disappearing Ashamed that you took their presence for granted But I didn't want to seem condescending I didn't know that you'd relive the moment The doctor came out with a frown and a clipboard And you wandered home with no ride feeling stupid That you thought that this was a regular visit Meghan held your body While you were sobbing at the party And I couldn't help from staring And creating extra tension Watching Meghan hold your body While you were sobbing at the party And I couldn't leave the kitchen I ingested too much poison. Were you supposed to not go to college? Stay in your mom's house on the computer googling grief cures, talking to no one Waiting for life to start feeling better? Waiting for pain to not be a constant? Waiting to feel like anyone's honest? Waiting for me to stop being sarcastic Because I can't accept (because I can't accept) Because I can't accept all the bad things that happen. Oh, I swear I'm sorry That I saw you at the party That I stood there saying nothing While you wept before your new friends Oh, I'm serious, I'm sorry Oh, I'm serious, I'm sorry