It starts to tear me down Destroyed by what I create It left the nerve exposed Feels like a lost cause It's what reduced me to this Turned me against myself It's still a lost cause I can't keep doing this to myself But it's the only way to forget who I am Your disability kept pushing me away It went beneath what's so real to me And threw it all away I underestimated The lengths that you would have gone To deny who you are You threw it all away I will keep doing this to myself 'cause it's the only way to forget who I am I never wanted your help I never needed your help This failure has to be all mine now I'll turn my back on myself If it's my only way out It can only help me if it hurts