I can feel the walls closing in and I don't want to talk anymore wish I could quietly slip away and leave you here with no void the only reason I stay is to care for you everything else in me has atrophied and I am cold and painless now I want to live but I feel nothing when can I die, when can I go when will I be free, when will I know when can I run - my legs are bound when can I go, when can I go was born a blackened seed in the wild and Inever was a child I was pulled right out of the sea and the salt - it never left my body someone opened me up while I was sleeping and filled my body right up with sand I carry a heaviness like a mountain it forces me to remain alive and ugly, alive and ugly alive and ugly, alive and ugly when can I die, when can i go when will I be free, when will I know when can I run, my legs are bound can I leave here, knowing you'll be strong without me they'll clap when you die they'll love you when you're dead and they'll understand and you'll be forgiven then