Held on to a dream until I lost my grip I felt it melt inside my fist Slipped out of bed still half convinced I don't exist The sweet conviction and addiction provided me with It's not how I want to live Now I forget how any of it makes a difference But I can't stand indifference Inside on a cruel night, had to come in from the cold Searching for proof there's something more I ask why you believe in god You tell me it's just easier You're right it's a short ride why fight it anymore When we embrace I feel the warmth in me changing me Exchanging goodbyes and head back Out in the cold Arms wrapped around an inkling like we're outside the airport I remind myself again It's in my hands And I can change the way it ends Outspoken, out loud, outlived mydoubts Out with it, dealt with it, burnt out, broke down How did it turn out, outside myself, I'll get in somehow I'm back Out in the cold, again Out in the cold, again Out in the cold, again Out in the cold, again