On a morning in baton rouge I change position to some heartbreaking news I remember the sobs in the call about you And i'm detuned To what rests on connecticut steps Total shock in an assortment of friends In thoughts to go along with the rest in my head It's what this meant It's what you meant To everyone you met Today i'm so unbelievably helpless Against the pit in my stomach i couldn't begin to shake off So in the back of my mind My brain has rendered me silent Which not a soul around me could understand I slept in the sun all the way to jackson You'd agree this is the worst goddamn place on earth Resolve to calm and conceal reactions That i'm so hurt; that we're so hurt It's a clever disguise i've made so sure Tonight i'm so unbelievably helpless Against the pit in my stomach i couldn't begin to shake off So in the back of my mind My brain has rendered me silent Which not a soul around me could ever understand Not a soul around me could ever understand