Dear diary, what have I done? Am I trippin' or am I alive? Once I've decided I've got stories to tell No way in hell was that just another motherfuckin' dream Doesn't matter, 'cause I already know How it feels to wake up with Yeah, body like a roadmap of pain Oh yeah, mind like a landfill of shame Tie my rope one more time Dear diary, had I known What I told you last night I would've never walked there to start another fight Banging my head on concrete wall while knockin' on wood Thinking it that's gonna do any good When I wake up with Yeah, body like a roadmap of pain Thats right, mind like a landfill of shame Tie my rope Tell me once, I decline, refuse to learn Shoot me twice, but I'm not going down I will climb the rope you tied for me Beat me up while I'm still alive Tell me once, I decline, refuse to learn Shoot me twice, but I'm not going down I will climb the rope you tied for me Beat me up while I'm still alive Tell me once, I decline, refuse to learn Shoot me twice, but I'm not going down I will climb the rope you tied for me Beat me up while I'm still alive