I was feeling a little bizarre The day that I burned my family car In the scrap metal wrecking yard And I've said so many goodbyes In the 25 years that I've been alive and I Don't know why this one was so hard And every time I go back to my apartment All I wanna do is get stoned And I'm sick and tired of blacking out on my carpet And waking up all on my own So I brought you home You started falling apart Six months after you moved in And I should have known from the start That things would be different It's not something that I can fix If I could do anything, you know I would and This freaking vacation would come to an end Maybe then you'd be normal again Last week when I went back to my apartment You were looking so stoned The day after Christmas, you acted so different Just wanted to be on your own So I thought you better sleep right through the day And cast all of my savings and loans But you were too late You weren't letting go And nothing I say Will make it okay You just sleep in the heat and repeat You wasted away And nothing I do Is gonna save you I'm trying my best but you Can't even look at me and talk to me and Tell me what's happening to you Yesterday I went back to my apartment To see how you'd been holding up You hadn't been eating I thought you were sleeping but You're not waking up And I wanted you to know that I'd Spend every bit of my Pitiful savings and loans Just to see you again But I know I won't