When I close my eyes I feel the light and darkness at the same time I've run away from what I hate But they've never faded away Every night, every day is always the same for me Just play some useless games No, I cannot remember even what I did today And where the gate of escape is It's hard to live hard to breathe Yes I am scared to fight Hard to live, hard to breathe Look at my two hazy eyes Hard to live, hard to breathe How much money should I waste for my worthless life Even if I lose my mind with my voices Can you realize, can you save me No you cannot It is all you can do to help yourself I can't afford, afford to die, afford to die, yes I'm scared to fight But I can't escape from where we are, from where we are From where I am Hard to live, hard to breathe Yes I am scared to fight Hard to live, hard to breathe Look at my two hazy eyes Hard to live, hard to breathe How much money should I waste for my worthless life I can't stand this anymore The bridge is cracked and the road is winding The sky turns gray and it starts falling down I've never known (I've never known) Which way to go (which way to go) The bridge is cracked and the road is winding The sky turns gray and it starts falling down I've never known which way to go They say do not lose your hope But I need to stand on my feet At last must do everything on my own I cannot afford to die, afford to die I cannot afford to die, afford to die I cannot afford to die, afford to die I cannot afford to die, afford to die