I'd love to hate you and I hate to say goodbye Although it's real I've been living in a lie The more I know the more I hate I have to run I deceive myself It's like necking with a gun For this time I start to realize that life's a bitch She hits you in the face and gives and tender Judas kiss Every thought is like salt in my wounds Until they're scarred you think she's bothering you too In a different place No expectations just our will I am losing you pace by pace When I look at your perfect face You're Beyond Beyond Beautiful I hate to love you but I do I can't deny I found myself by losing you in better lies It's 5 past 12 maybe I was still too young I will hurt myself by hurting you on my ego run In a different place No expectations just our will For the last time your perfect face Pale and dead When I carry you to your grave You're Beyond Beautiful