state of emergency condition me to feel nothing and not look back at all we fall asleep we cannot dream we try to speak we cannot scream we've bled dry every part of me to keep it secret keep is safe and clean when it feels like I am dying what does it feel like for you? break this resolve without trying yours can be broken too cannot see can only keep remembering what I know, I know, I know my innocence free from defense life time sentence d-d-d-damage, damage beyond repair break this down