If ever you had said to me before That I would lead this life That I am living now I guess it's all so strange To feel the way I do inside and Have so much that I could feel some Pride for in my life so why is it that I feel like this Chorus: How do I feel? I've been here before I've felt this Retreat to a place, a place within me I need this Keep it all down, bottled inside it breaks me to torment again and Torture me like it used to I try and try to break away from all the hate I'm feeling for everyone of you that's ever Done me wrong I need to justify the reasons for the way I'm living I guess I can't cause I don't feel like I deserve Chorus: How do I feel? I've been here before I've felt this Retreat to a place, a place within me I need this Keep it all down bottled inside it breaks me to torment again and Torture me like it used to (screams) So now the waves they have subsided And my soul is bleeding I can't take away all the shame I feel Forgive me Chorus: How do I feel? I've been here before I've felt this Retreat to a place, a place within me I need this Keep it all down bottled inside it breaks me to torment again and Torture me like it used to Again