I choke on my bitterness Because some things are better left unsaid Hesitant is my instinctive venom Since I've stepped out of this light I said I'm sorry The truth is I never was Begging to be indifferent I'll take you down with me You're going down I'll take you down Falling, scratching, tearing Ripping, falling, melting Scratching, tearing, bleeding, feeding I said I'm sorry The truth is I never am Begging for indifference I'll drag you down with me You're going down I'll drag you down A toxified embrace holds me up As my suicide increases And my life skids out of control Shouting back in my face As I lose control of my hands and mind As I reach for my peace I claw at my eyes Insensitivity looking away Just like a raped mother to her child I hate you just the same, I hate you And when patience wears thin Intentions watch hungrily transparent Anxious to feast on your devotion Anticipating that quenchless thirst