Staring at the candle light Here in my dark hiding place No one knows the real me No more feigned smile How should I live? Should I become the one that you want me to be? Oh my twisted, chained up heart is giving a cry What am I living for? I don't know... If I can find out why, I'll be relieved I want proof that I'm alive Proof that makes it all clear Washed away by reality Let it take me to drown the pain My anger has lost it's way Now it hurts those I love How long's it been Since I lost sight of what's a lie and what's the truth? Pretty things like dreams and hope I now refuse What am I living for? I don't know... If I can find out why, I'll be relieved I want proof that I'm alive Proof that makes it all clear My thoughts are set on repeat Can I get out of this hiding place? What's the reason I can't move? Maybe I'm still afraid... What am I living for? I don't know... If I can find out why, I'll be relieved I want proof that I'm alive Proof that makes it all clear What am I living for? I don't know...