As I kick myself again And I try to pick myself back up again Don't want to make the same mistake Always the first with an excuse But it's when you're cornered by the truth Sometimes its easier that way As you turn away When realization stares you down And you swear you've come to terms I'm weary I've seen it all too many times It never made much sense So I always had to stop an second guess Defeat myself before I start Comfort seems so far away Peace of mind is just a luxary Forgetting is the hardest part It's not what you say matters Because anyone could say those words to me You say that I lack compassion But that's when my first reaction Isn't how you wanted me to be As I kick myself again And I try to pick myself back up again Don't want to make the same mistake