Wasn't raised religious But I wish that I was Having nothing to believe in Has been killing my buzz Yeah, I cut my hair, closed the blinds Play "Hallelujah" like two dozen times And yesterday, I tried to pray But I didn’t know what to say I'm too sad to cry, too high to get up Don't even try ’ cause I'm scared to fuck up Don't like to talk, I just lay in my bed Don't even try to go out with my friends Lied to my doctor, she knew I was fakin' Gave me some pills, but I'm too scared to take 'em I try and I try, but I'm too sad to cry Can’t tell my mama It makes her worry I’m not suicidal But sometimes, the lines get all blurry Yeah, I cut my hair, closed the blinds Played "Hallelujah" like two dozen times And yesterday, I tried to pray But I didn't know what to say I’m too sad to cry, too high to get up Don't even try 'cause I'm scared to fuck up Don’t like to talk, I just lay in my bed Don't even try to go out with my friends I lied to my doctor, she knew I was fakin' Gave me some pills, but I'm too scared to take 'em I try and I try, but I'm too sad to cry I'm too sad to cry, too high to get up Don't even try 'cause I'm scared to fuck up Don't like to talk, I just stay in my bed Don't even try to go out with my friends Lied to my doctor, she knew I was fakin' Gave me some pills, but I'm too scared to take 'em I try and I try, but I'm too sad to cry