I NEVER REALIZE THE CHANGE WHICH HAPPENED IN MY LIFE SO WHAT? THERE MUST BE SOMETHING THAT WE CAN NOT REALLY HANDLE BY OURSELVES IN 1990 I DECIDED TO BE BETTER THAN BEFORE BUT I STILL HAVEN'T FOUND THE ANSWER WHICH I EXPECTED FOR MYSELF DRINKING EVERY NIGHT FUCKING MY OWN LIFE PULLING SOMEONE'S LEG STEALING HIS IO BUCKS THAT'S WHAT I AM I'M SORRY NOTHING'S EVER DONE AS I LIKE, SO I TRY TO CHEAT MY MISTAKES I KNOW IT'S FUCKIN' WRONG BUT I BETRAY THE PERSON NEXT TO ME YOU SAID I SHOULD DO SOMETHING DIFFERENT I'VE NEVER DONE BEFORE I NEVER COMPROMISE THOUGH THE SHIT IS ALWAYS HAPPENING TO ME THERE MUST BE SOMETHING THAT WE CAN NOT REALLY MAKE A CONCESSION WHEN I FIRST MET YOU, I DECIDED TO BE WISER THAN BEFORE BUT I STILL COULDN'T BE WISE ENOUGH CAUSE I CAN NOT UNDERSTAND