Heaven Knows

歌詞

I was standing at the edge Of a life I couldn’t name Half afraid of moving forward Half addicted to the pain City lights were blurred like memories Fading in the midnight rain And every road I never took Kept calling out my name Everybody said be careful Don’t go chasing fragile things Dreams can turn to broken mirrors Hope can lose its silver wings But I was never built for silence Never made to simply stay There was thunder in my heartbeat There was fire I couldn’t tame So I kept every scar like proof That I had tried, that I had lived Sometimes surviving is the bravest thing A soul can ever give Maybe fear is just a doorway Maybe pain is not the end Maybe every shattered moment Is a place we start again And if I fall, then let me fall With my whole heart in the sky Because I’d rather lose while flying Than never dare to try Heaven knows How many nights I almost gave up How many tears became oceans How many prayers went unanswered Heaven knows I was breaking just to find me Learning how to turn the darkness Into something that could guide me There were voices in the hallway Telling me to stay the same But comfort is a quiet prison And I forgot who I became So I opened every window Let the cold come rushing through Sometimes healing starts with chaos Sometimes truth arrives uninvited too I found strength inside the ruins I found light inside goodbye And every version left behind me Helped me learn how high to rise If tomorrow takes the skyline If the stars refuse to shine I will still believe in morning I will still believe in mine Because hope is not a promise It’s a choice we make in pain And I would choose a thousand storms Before I disappear again Heaven knows! How many times I stood here shaking Still I chose the road uncertain Still I chose the risk of breaking Heaven knows! I am not the girl I once was I am louder, I am stronger I am everything the dark was afraid of Maybe miracles look smaller Than the stories always say Maybe sometimes They look like choosing To stay