出会う事にはあんなに臆病だったのに

歌詞

Song lyrics:（Japanease） 出会う 事にはあんなに臆病だったのに 出会うことにはあんなに 臆病だったのに 夜は平気なふりをして 傘の下で息を白くした いつの事だったかな 友達と一緒に会いに行ったのは 軽く会話を交わして そつのない笑い話をして また会おうねって言って それっきり会わない友達の友達 雨粒がガラスを叩いて ネオンが滲んで名前も滲んで 「ちゃんと覚えてるよ」って 言えないまま 帰り道だけ覚えてる いつの事だったかな 友達と 一緒に会いに行ったのは 会うのに臆病な分だけ 再会にはもっと臆病で 遠い記憶になった頃 二度と会えない人になってた カップの底で冷めるコーヒー 溶けた砂糖みたいに言い訳だけが 残る 連絡先も誕生日も 知らないまま親しい顔で笑ってた 巡り合いを日常で消費して わたしとあなたは 「またね」を小さく折りたたんで ポケットの奥に仕舞い込んだ すれ違いは悪意じゃなくて ただ忙しさの形だった 会いたい、の一言が 喉の手前で胸に引っかかったの ねえ、あの夜の光は まだ胸のどこかで揺れてるの? 手を伸ばせば届いたはずの 名前のない距離を抱きしめたまま ひとつの出会いを 「いつか」で終わらせて 二度と会えない人に変えてしまう わたしを 少しだけ許して欲しい いつの事だったかな あなたの隣で頷いたのは 「最近どう?」の薄い言葉に ほんとの気持ちは隠したまま 優しい人ほど 簡単に遠くへ行ってしまう わたしは臆病で 臆病を理由にして 大切なものを 大切って言うのが遅すぎたから 巡り合いを日常で消費して わたしとあなたは 笑顔のまま切り取られた 写真みたいに止まってしまう 街灯の下影が伸びて 野良猫が横切って 追いかけたら何かが変わる? そんな勇気も持てないままだった ねえ、あの夜の光は 今もどこかで揺れているよ 失くしたんじゃなくて 見失っただけだって信じたい 涙と雨で滲んだあなたの影を抱いて 帰って コーヒーで癒して 唄と音でため息を包んだら 1本の蝋燭ができあがるの それがあなたの胸の奥で そっと灯りますように Song lyrics:（English） Even Though I Was So Afraid to Meet You Even though I was so afraid of meeting someone, I acted like the night didn’t scare me, and under my umbrella, I let my breath turn white. When was it, I wonder the day I went to meet you with a friend? We traded a few light words, laughed at safe, practiced jokes, said, “Let’s meet again,” and that was it a friend of a friend I never saw again. Raindrops tapped against the glass, neon bled, and even your name blurred, and though I wanted to say, “I remember you,” I couldn’t I only remember the way home. When was it, I wonder the day I went to meet you with a friend? The more afraid I was to meet, the more afraid I was to meet again. By the time you became a distant memory, you had already become someone I could never meet again. Coffee cooling at the bottom of the cup like sugar that’s dissolved, only excuses are left behind. I didn’t even know your contact, or your birthday, yet I smiled like we were close. We spend our encounters in everyday life, and you and I folded up “See you” into something small, and tucked it away in the back of a pocket. Our passing-by wasn’t cruelty it was simply the shape of being busy. “I want to see you,” just one phrase, caught in my chest before it reached my throat. Hey… that light from that night is it still trembling somewhere in your heart? The distance with no name, that should have been within reach if I’d only stretched out my hand I held it close, and never let it go. I take one encounter and end it with “someday,” and turn you into someone I’ll never meet again. Please for just a moment forgive me. When was it, I wonder, the time I nodded beside you? At the thin words, “How have you been?” I kept my real feelings hidden. The kinder a person is, the easier they drift far away. I was a coward— and used cowardice as my excuse, so the words “You matter” came far too late. We spend our encounters in everyday life, and you and I stop like a photo cut out mid-smile. Under the streetlight, shadows stretched, a stray cat crossed our path if I chased it, would anything change? I never found the courage to try. Hey… that light from that night it’s still trembling somewhere, even now. Not lost just misplaced, that’s what I want to believe. I come home holding your shadow, blurred by tears and rain, and let coffee soothe me. If I wrap my sighs in song and sound, one candle is made. May it glow softly deep within your heart, so gently.